Posturepedic

Hopefully one day all forms of marriage will be legal.

- Dave

Invented Holiday - Fuck All Day

*sticks a flag in*

I claim this day International Fuck All Day. A day all persons need badly, especially in these modern times. Today is a day to not get anything constructive done. Today is a day to go out and sit on the lawn, and do nothing. Today is a day to throw off the oppressive and soul-draining shackles of To Do Lists, Errands, and "I Should Really Get Up And..." thoughts. Today is a day, to be free.

The esteemed Eddie Izzard is our mascot. You are encouraged to wear makeup and/or heels today, but it is not required. At least one reference to him is required, however, complete with impersonation. Everyone loves the voices.

What can you do on International Fuck All Day (or iFAD for you Mac users)? Anything you want. As long as you want to do it, and not should do it. It's all about intention. If you have to go to great lengths to get nothing accomplished, but you do it in a relaxed and lazy manner, you're on the right path. Today's mantra and motto is, "Take 'er Easy."

In the spirit of this, I have made a list of approved activities. But in no way is this comprehensive. More like guidelines than actual rules. Yarr.

• Movie and TV watching. Extra points for simply sitting and listening to music while doing nothing else.
• Reading, as long as it's not work/homework related.
• Laying down in various places of your home. Extra points for the floor.
• Reading webcomics
• Drawing/painting/writing, as long as it is not work/homework related.
• Aimlessly surfing the Internets. Either one.
• Eating. Extra points for each irregular meal and/or strange food combo.
• Walking around, as long as you aren't trying to get somewhere for any productive reason.
• Lovins. As long as you're not trying to produce anything.
• Napping. Multiple naps are encouraged in the middle of any activity for extra points.

As I said, this is just a rule of thumb, to serve as an example. An e.g. if you will. Which someone told me is Latin for something.

I kind of lost my train of thought there.

So... yeah. Don't do anything today. Practice not-forcing. Don't even make a plan. Just do things as they pop into your head. Take 'er easy, my friends. Take 'er easy.

- Dave

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Weird Dream

I had a dream I was flying looking for one of my brother's friend's house. My mom was there. We had a GPS device but I still almost got lost. On the way back down to the ground there was a floating cell phone. I grabbed it. Apparently UPS had dropped it out of a plan on accident or something. Later in the dream I found the guy it was supposed to go to, haha.

Then I dreamed of a backyard full of mutli-colored bees, all metallic reds and green and gold. Like those beetles. They were swarming over bushes and would chase softballs that I threw for them. Once they flew all around me to get to the ball and I raised my arms up like they were cold water and was afraid of getting stung, but they didn't. They were so pretty.

But someone else did get stung, by a scorpion I think.


Flight
To dream of flight, signifies a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

Mother
To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character.

To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life.

Bees
To see bees in your dream, symbolizes good luck, harmony, and bliss. Bees are also symbolic of work and industry as represented by the common phrase "busy as a bee."

Softball
To dream that you are playing or watching softball, indicates that you need to go back to you basic beliefs. Also, you need to stay within your own limits and capabilities. Alternatively, softball can symbolize relationship and how the masculine aspects (shape of the bat) are in opposition to the feminine aspects (ball).

Scorpions
To see a scorpion in your dream, represents a situation in your waking life which may have been painful or hurtful. It is also indicative of destructive feelings, "stinging" remarks, bitter words and/or negative thoughts being expressed by or aimed against you.

Your dream forewarns of a self-destructive and self-defeating path. The scorpion is also a symbol of death and rebirth. You need to get rid of the old and make room for something new.


The Dave

Holy Gawd

Payday needs to be now.

- Dave

My Compass Spins, The Wilderness Remains

I've started and quit writing something like this so many times. I've been writing in a new notebook, and while this isn't that I think it's the write thing to do. I did proof-read that sentence.

*sigh*

Things are difficult. I want to apologize to everyone. If I could pick, this wouldn't be my choice. But I can't ignore it or pretend it's not there. Something is wrong with me and/or my situation and something has to give. It can't go on any longer than it has without harmful consequences.

It seems like I'm leaving one set of people and places for another, but that's not it. It may seem a bit easier for me that there could be others I can go to, but in a way it's not. I can't be here less than one-hundred percent. Anything worth doing, is worth doing right and that doubly applies to the people that make up one's life. Over and over I wish things were different. But the fact is they are not.

Lately I have realized that I need to go and be alone. Not for a week or a month. That's not alone, that's a vacation. While some may disagree, I don't deserve to be with any of you. I have an addiction, and you're all my fix. Ask any drug addict and soon it's never enough. If I stay, I know that I'll do worse things to try and get what I want. That isn't fair to any of us. I can try to modify the substance but it will always be the same at it's root.

Please accept my apology. I know this isn't easy or smooth or comfortable day-to-day. This will not blow over with time, and the longer I stay the worse it will get. I'm trying to do right by everyone, even if that means painful things. I want to take care of us truly, and for the long road ahead.

I don't know what will happen. Maybe a miracle-cure will come to me in the night, but that's wishful thinking.

I have great faith that life will take care of itself and us, like it always has. Sometimes the transitions are a bitch, but it will be okay. I'm trying to listen to and go with the waves. Everything finds it's balance. Everything will be okay.

I'm sorry.

- Dave