Scared, I Am

Loss is scary. The phantom of loss is scary. The phantoms of other's loss is scary. Loss means change, and change as a minus sign, not a plus sign. Not an addition to your life, but a subtraction. 98% of people fear change, and I can be counted among that number. Buddhist or not. I know its a necessary part of life, but regardless some things I really really don't want to be parted from. Really really.

I'm more stable than the past weeks though. I know I'd be okay. In the long run. Perhaps the long long run. Devastation does not always mean destruction. But it does mean shit hitting the proverbial fan and the pillars of Heaven shaking.

I'm alive. I'm warm. I have my security sweatshirt. I'm okay. For reals. And you will be too, dear reader. I promise.

- BuddhaDave